Just one of our beautiful Wisdom of Eloheim cards! Set of 36 cards!

Someone asked me about the difference between focusing on outcome and planning.

I had a chat with Eloheim about it as I was driving to the post office and here’s the short version.

Planning is focusing on the step you are on, setting a trajectory, and opening to the possibilities that open as you go.

Outcome is focusing on a specific “down the road” step. A specific person, job, house, etc and trying to pull that to you.

Here are some highlights from a Facebook conversation on the topic.

Veronica: I think we tend to be in outcome when there is “a lot on the line” and we are desperate to control the situation. That’s the precise moment when we need the flexibility of uncertainty to bring in new insights and we tend to contract and fall back on old patterns.

Those patterns haven’t given us solutions in the past, however they are familiar and “any port in a storm” seems to rule.

Takes discipline to do it differently.

Very easy to slip into old patterns and then beat up on yourself that “nothing works.”

Veronica: Outcome/Certainty = constriction
Feels “normal” thus returned to: familiar suffering of fake certainty

In the moment/Uncertainty = flexibility
Feels “unusual” thus avoided: interpreted as danger mostly because you can’t “prove/reproduce/control” results and hesitate to lean into something that doesn’t offer (fake) certainty.

Kate: Since E’s explanation, I realize I can feel the difference between the two in my body. Planning feels “here and now” and my energy feels solidly in the body but with outcome my energy feels “somewhere else” waaaay out of my body. Interesting!

Veronica: Here’s a fun example from me: I sent some decks of cards to Kate. When I put them in the box, the label wrapped around the box in a weird way and the Post Office man frowned at me. because he had to type the numbers in rather than scan them.

I offered to re apply the label, twice, but he said no it’s ok.

I just messaged Kate asking if the cards had arrived and found myself saying PLEASE SAY YES over and over again. LOL

As if, it is some life threatening thing and not about $30 worth of stuff.

OUTCOME. How do I know that the cards arriving is the “good” outcome? I don’t. I put myself under stress wanting that outcome. I suffered at my own hand.

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Yesterday was the 12th anniversary of the first public Eloheim channeling session way back in 2002.

I made a (very) rough estimate and figure that I’ve held around 650 public channeling sessions.

It doesn’t feel like it has been that many.

When I first started, I was so insecure about the process. I remember crying on the way to the meetings on many occasions. Back then, I couldn’t channel and process the information that I was channeling at the same time.

I’ve always likened it to those moving billboards in Time’s Square where the message scrolls across a few words at a time. In fact, I would often use that visual. I would pretend I could see a billboard and I would read the words that Eloheim “wrote” on it until I could relax enough (usually a few minutes into the meeting) to drop that tool.

Hearing the message three words at a time with no connection to the previous three words meant I had no idea what Eloheim was saying and spent the entire session wondering if anything made any sense. Folks kept coming back so I figured it must.

In the beginning, we had the “boyfriends and dead relatives” sessions. The questions asked of Eloheim were typically things like, “Is the guy I met in the grocery store yesterday going to become my husband?” and “How is my aunt/uncle/mom/day/brother/sister/friend that died doing?”

At some point, it changed. We started talking about Core Emotions and Eloheim began exploring their overall themes of living consciously, connecting with your soul’s perspective, neutral observation, and much more. Continue Reading…

I find myself looking for a project. How about writing a new book? No, been there done that, don’t have any clever ideas anyway.

What if I channeled a special package? Not in the mood to fix my hair!

What about thinning out the clothing supply? Maybe, if I could get motivated to go into the bedroom and give that a whirl.

I realize the project really is me.

It’s looking at the world and my movement through it from the Level 7 perspective. This isn’t all that easy or natural feeling.

It’s like when I stall before starting the channeling. That’s exactly how I feel. I feel like I’m stalling.

Gotta jump in with both feet.

When I access Level 7, everything subtly shifts. My vision actually changes. A sense of quiet falls over me. The unknown unknowable stretches out in front of me. It’s rather surreal.

I have to keep choosing this perspective. It is not a default state by any stretch of the imagination.

When I’m in it, everything that used to matter is less important and what I am experiencing feels so different than anything that has come before.

It requires a type of courage that I’ve not accessed before. Maybe that’s not true. It requires the type of courage I use when I sit down, close my eyes, and invite the Council in.

Level 7 asks me to invite myself in. What will I find when I do?

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Last Christmas, I was in Seattle visiting a friend. Eloheim had been talking about creating a “game” to help people understand just how Creating Your Reality actually works. As I was lazing about on the couch, I got clarity on how we could proceed. I asked my friend for some printer paper and a pair of scissors.

I cut the paper up and started writing on it.

Turned out like this:

Once I was home and after a few fits and starts, Kerri James (epic graphic designer and super cool chic!) and I got down to business. We wanted to finish this project before I left for Europe in July 2014.

We worked for weeks. So many decisions to make! Colors, shapes, fonts, text, box size, card size, number of cards and on and on and on. We were up against the Europe deadline and the printer’s deadlines and the shipping time needed!

It was intense and so much fun all at the same time. The last three days were a little nutty. I worked 40 hours in three days (including a 17 hour stretch that last day).

Then it was done.

I still get rather emotional when I think about it. Continue Reading…

We are in retreat preparation mode around here! Sorting out the final parts of the schedule, getting the dietary request/requirements dialed in, talking about rides from the airport…all the little details involved in bringing a group of people together for four days.

I walked down to my mail box yesterday with my mind filled by these thoughts and more. I caught myself drifting out of the moment, stopped, cleared my mind, and looked around with new eyes.

My gaze landed on this Manzanita tree. I’ve seen this tree 1000 times if I’ve seen it once. Yet, this time, my eyes saw something brand new.

Level 2 – Such a limited number of choices. They look old and weathered. All paths well traveled and leading only to a revisting of themselves yet again.

Continue Reading…

On August 24, 2014 we had a 6.0 earthquake. I live in Sonoma and Napa is just (points East) over there on the other side of that mountain/hill.

The USGS site describes it this way:

A magnitude 6.0 earthquake struck in northern California on August 24, 2014 at 10:20:44 UTC.

This event is being called the South Napa earthquake.

This is the largest earthquake in the Bay Area since the magnitude 6.9 Loma Prieta earthquake in 1989, almost 25 years ago.

Yes, I felt it. It was 3:20am for me. Here is what I posted on Facebook later that morning:

Thanks for the messages asking about my well being following the earthquake. Continue Reading…

Will I or won’t I?
Should I or shouldn’t I?
Could I or would I?

I’m exploring a new state of being. It has everything to do with facing this moment with nothing, and everything to do with being in this moment with everything.

It’s not that easy to describe.

Watch this short video first. YOU WILL PROBABLY WANT TO TURN YOUR SPEAKERS OFF OR DOWN BEFORE PLAYING THE VIDEO.

It’s so easy to describe that video. I’m sure if I read some of the comments, folks would give all sorts of great examples.

“It’s fake!”
“What luck!”

Internet Rule #1 – Read comments with caution (especially on YouTube).

Anonymity doesn’t always bring out the constructive part of humanity.

When I watch the video, it reminds me of IDKWGO (I don’t know what’s going on) – the extreme version.

In the blink of an eye, the rider goes from one state (the motorcycle) to another (the car roof). I imagine that even the most talented gymnast would be challenged to make that transition on purpose and with foreknowledge. Yet, somehow, the rider does it.

I’m doing the energetic version of this.

I’m declining the preconceived idea of what is now or next or needed and abiding in the revealed.

I really don’t like having to depend on woo woo-ish words to describe something.

How about this?

I’m not going to assume I know.

I’m not going to assume that I have any way to know.

I’m exploring what happens when I discard the “knowing” that presents itself and intead… how to say it. It’s like trying to remember a dream. The way of putting it into words is easily lost.

I feel it most strongly when I put in ear plugs, cover my eyes, and lay down.

I see what thoughts and feelings arise and I set them aside.

The picture I get now, as I reflect on the process of the last couple of hours, is that I’m standing in front of a full length mirror and women keep holding dresses up in front of me. I keep saying, “No” and another dress is lifted in place of the one just rejected. Each dress is an idea of myself or a role or an obligation. With each “No” I get closer to the unadorned truth of me.

The truth that abides even when upside down, flying through the air, with no idea where I will land.

Reading all that makes it sound like I’m only getting into the moment. That’s a worthy ambition and it surely is having that effect.

It’s not just that though.

I’m not simply quieting the hamster-wheel mind of life concerns. In fact, I wasn’t needing to do that at all. Eloheim has taught me well and Level 6 is a common state of everyday being.

It’s Level 7 that I’m exploring and it seems to look like:

I’m no longer engaging with preconceived notions of existing.

WTF does that even mean?

I will be sure to let you know as I know.

Right now, it means walking to the Post Office.

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Read part one of Life with Eloheim here
Part 2 here
Part 3 here
Part 4 here
Part 5 here
Part 6 here
Part 7 here
Part 8 here
Part 9 here

Last night I did a channeling for myself. I don’t do them very often; last night it was needed.

I’ve been experiencing a lot of body oddness since I returned from my time in Europe. The energy of Turkey (Middle East) was very intense for me.

We were in a lovely home, cared for by LOVELY people, and so close to the sea! We ate amazing food and had great weather. All of the things that one might think about needing when traveling were taken care of.

Still, it’s the Middle East. It’s a region that has been in conflict off and on for centuries. It was intense.

I felt it on the plane. Yeah, THAT intense.

On the plane ride there, I could feel the energy getting more and more heavy. Continue Reading…

Yesterday I took a walk, and the day before that, and the day before that. This is a big deal.

For most people taking a walk three days in a row might require discipline; for me it was a matter of facing a fear.

I’ve had this “hip thing” for two years now. Mostly it shows up when I walk on hard surfaces. The sort of surfaces that you find in grocery stores, streets, airports, and tile floors. The pain can go from a zero to a seven in a few seconds and when it flares up, I can’t really walk. I sort of drag or slide my leg along.

Going for a walk has been scary.

There was that one time that I had to call my neighbor to come pick me up in the car because I couldn’t make it back up the mountain. That pretty much sealed the deal for me.

Walk (at least from my house) = scary.

If you have been following Eloheim for any time at all, you will undoubtedly be wondering, “Which side?”

It’s my left hip: the receiving side, the feeling supported side, the allowing side.

Mary and me at the Mediterranean Sea for the first time (for me)

While we were in Europe, Continue Reading…

This morning I watched a video on my Facebook wall.

That’s the spiritual journey right there. Set to beautiful music even.

I feel like I have been doing just that, to myself, for 25 years.

The removal of baggage* and static**, the choices, the presence, the neutrality, the transformation, the expansion, the consistency. The master lets go of clay that, although useful, is not useful in THAT place. The limitation of the original form is released by taking the risk of seeking something new.

More and more I realized that it’s all about allowance. When I was very young, that allowance looked like “let go and let God.”

At some point, it morphed into “go with the flow,” which really meant do what everyone else is doing.

Those paths now give me the willies!

Now, it’s an allowance of the now to be all.

That sounds way woo-woo to me, so I best add some more words in here. Continue Reading…